My testimony part 6.

I took some time off from writing and started hitting the books. I hit the Word hard and also read a few other books on spirituallity. As I read I began to give glory to God, he gave me a way when there was no way. God became my refuge in the time in my life where it seemed like I lost it all. The Lord now also has given me some answers to what was going on in my life. God is good all the time and I love him with all my heart and soul.

Now my story continues and I want to start off by saying the devil is a lie. Again we are not battling flesh and blood but principalities, against powers, against rulers of darkness, and against wickedness in heavenly places Eph 6:12. This is one of my favorite bible verses and was soon caught up working with these forces of darkness that I despised. I never thought that if you were saved and babtized you can become possesed or oppressed. These evil forces at work can bind the saved as well as the unsaved if you leave a door open for them to operate in. In my case I had a strong love for Lord and prayed for spiritual gifts. I read in corinthians as Christians we should ask for spiritual gifts to help build the body of Christ. I prayed and prayed  then soon some gifts started to manefest themself. That is where the enemy used my spirituallity against me, since I wanted the gifts so bad when the gifts came I thought they were from God because they were supernatural in nature. I didn't question it and that is just one way the enemy slid their way in my life and began to bind me. I thought my gifts were coming from God but in fact they were coming from the enemy. I believed God had answered my prayers but at the same time I began to feel emotions that were not of mine. I would get angry alot more and also had the feeling of being above the law. Where were these feelings coming from?  The enemy was gaining more ground in my life slowly binding me and affecting my emotions.

They say with knowledge comes responsibilities and it is soo true. I thought I knew soo much, but when you are dealing with the spiritual realm I knew nothing. The enemy will use emotions, desires, and anything else to find their way in our lives and keep us bound to the sins of our flesh. We have to trust in the Lord and let the Holy Spirit do the battling for us. Glory be to God and I thank the Lord Jesus Christ for breaking the bond that the devil had on me. I was blind and now I see, so my story continues. God Bless!!!

My testimony part 5.

I was going through alot and nobody understood what was happening. Something was triggered in my life and I was given the ability to receive the spiritual gifts I had prayed for. The gifts that I had been given we specific for me and everyday I was moving in the spirit. My family has no history of mental illness but all of a sudden I was given the tag of being bi-polar. I learned that people tend to fear what they don't understand and at this point nobody definately understood me.

The war was going on in the heavenly places and it seemed they were all out to get me. The spirit gave me the ability to see the demonic activities that were going on with music and television especially. I remember turning on the tv and flipping it to Jerry Springer and seeing several of the guests on that show who were demon possesed. All those stories on that show promoted multiple partners and now it made sense why. I would turn it to MTV and watch a video and see some of the biggest stars possesed. The videos were just tools they used to influence the masses to spread their evil message. It was like a modern day sort of witchcraft or spell which people were blinded to because all they seen was their favorite star or was singing their favorite song. Again from what I saw I would try to talk to others about it but they would not listen, it began to get frustrating. At the time I was slowly trying to wheen off the remaining secular music that I had left and transition into more positive music. My music was the hardest thing for me to give up, I quit smoking cold turkey as well as drinking. Music was different, I just couldn't give it up like that  and it had a hold on me. I I left that door open in my life for the enemy to slide right in.

The road for me now begins to turn downhill because I soon became what I was battling. All the talking I did was on deaf ears and soon began to walk on the darkside. It was the easiest course of action so I took it. I began to run with the enemy. I gave up because the battle seemed too big for me. I still continued to pray and talk to the Lord but soon became overwhelmed by what I was seeing in the spiritual realm. Writing about last year the more I write the more I want to write more.  Even though plenty of bad things happened last year, I still learned from it and thank God that he brought me through it and never left my side. My story continues and I will keep everyone posted. May God Bless you all!!

My testimony part 4

At this point in my life everyone is panicking around me. I was still being completely guided by the Holy Spirit and everyday I would see the world for what it really was. I let go of all that I cared for in order to follow the Lord. I walked out on my job in order to free myself to do the Lords work full time. I couldn't function without help from the spirit because I still was living each day with the ability to see in the spiritual realm. I felt the Lords presence all times and he gave me peace in these times of confusion. My life became completely out of balance and I was loosing my sense of reality.  Everyday I would see things of the supernatural and this soon affected what was going on in the natural.

Everyone thought I was going crazy but did not understand what I was going through. My wife began to panic because I walked out of my job and began to do things that were out of character. People around me began to worry about me also everyone seemed to be an expert on what was going on with me. The enemy was hard at work trying to break my mind down. For me it felt like Jesus could come back at anytime. I was seeing evil spirits, fallen angels, and who knows what else.  The Lord gave me the ability to understand this spiritual war but I did not trust in him to fight for me. Evil spirits were all around and had stronghold on my family and friends.

As I look back on what happened last year in my life I want to say thank you to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for bringing me out of the depths of darkness and back into the light. I thank you for the bad as well as the good and opening my eyes to the truth of this world. I thank God for putting me through these trials which brought me even closer to him and taught me to put my complete trust in him in everything I do. I got much more to talk about and will post more soon. All glory be to God and may God bless you all.